Monday, 21 November 2016

6 Years Volunteering At East Anglia's Children's Hospice Charity Shop

I didn't think I'd be writing this post let alone the 5 year one I wrote last year but here I am again writing that I've been volunteering for 6 years now! I can't believe I've been there for so long I even have a nickname which is Bob!.

So I started volunteering back in November 2010 (the 21st) and it's made a huge difference to me with confidence and shyness having Fragile X makes things harder for me but I've definitely come out my shell since being there. It wasn't my plan to be there this long I guess I thought I'd be there for a few months or a year tops but finding a job hasn't been easy at all. I don't know what I'd be doing if I hadn't of gone? would I have a job? who knows but I think it was a good thing that I started.

I just hope my luck changes in 2017 and things get better.

Halloween 2014 with my witchy friend.
Sue,Me, (not there anymore) and Dawn (in green).
I am grateful for all the people I've met who've been there trough the tough times my break up, losing my Grandad and most recently my cat Puddy (this year) and for also rooting for me to get a job they also cheer me up when I'm down. We have a good laugh there it's always fun they are great people to work with and I'm glad I started volunteering.

I do the mornings now I fancied a change from doing all day but really I hope a job comes along soon. I work on Monday mornings with Brad (Boss) Dawn we sort the bric a brac, I also see Pat and his dad Terry. On Friday mornings I work with Brad, Hazel (she's the oldest volunteer but always makes us laugh),Joann and Terry. I sometimes see other the volunteers June, Marion, Cindy and the Wednesday staff who are Vera, Anne and Sue I sometimes see Vera.

I will finish by saying that taking up volunteering was probably the best thing I've done well so far but getting a job will be good too! I will try and still go to volunteering because I know I'll miss it and I'm sure I'll be missed too! (I hope!).
Halloween again 2014 Me,Joann and Sue
Lol trying on wigs!
LOL when I photobomb Brad!.
Brad (boss) and Me at Christmas 2014.
Photobombed again! such fun!.
Me selling the cheeza t-shirts/jumpers.
Cheeza jumper someone made them but donated them to us! I'm not sure what cheeza means and I'm not sure why I posed like that?!?.
Halloween 2014 Me and Brad.
When I wore a big wedding dress!.

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Monday, 14 November 2016

Interviews Are SO Hard These Days

These days interviews are so hard for such simple jobs it seems so ridiculous and I don't get it? I can do these jobs even a monkey could do it but they make them seem so complicated. The questions are also stupid they seem to make them just as complicated so I get stuck answering them =/.

When you apply for a job they have a long description etc and it's just stupid why do jobs have to be like that? it's not hard to use a till,talk to customers,put stock out etc so why won't someone employ me?. Jobs these days want you to have 10 or more years experience and that's so impossible when no one will give me a chance EVERYONE HAS TO START SOMEWHERE.

Everyone has to start somewhere so what makes me any different? I know I'm not the most outgoing person or the most confident but I'm still me and I can still do things.Having Fragile X makes things harder for me but I'm still capable of doing a job even if it takes me a while to pick it up.

I really do try my best at finding a job and it hasn't been easy at all but I am remaining positive about it and hoping something comes along. All I want is a chance and some luck because I really do deserve that. I want to work and achieve something and be successful in life. I do think I must be doing something right if I can get interviews so my CV must be good but then I either hear nothing or get a no in fact I heard nothing back from my last 2 interviews rude much.

I do have a lot of support around me which I am grateful for my parents,my volunteering friends,the people from the Fragile X Facebook page,my work choice advisor and I guess my jobcentre advisor though I don't think she's that helpful they never are in there. I think she gets it in the ear to get me a job but I can't do anymore than what I'm already doing I'm trying my damn hardest here if someone gave me chance that would be great.
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I hope to be back with good news soon (I say that a lot)


Tuesday, 8 November 2016

Life Update

Well to be honest I'm not even sure if writing this post is worth it because nothing is remotely happening in my life and I just feel like where am I going? what's going to happen? am I ever going to get a job?. This wasn't the plan at all I thought I'd be volunteering for a few months possibly a year and after my 2 Xmas jobs I thought I'd be in a permanent role by now. It's been a year since I was a M&S :O and not a lot has happened :( it does get annoying when people keep saying something will come along will it? will I EVER get a job? or am I just destined to be unemployed?.

I always say every year I'll get a job has it happened? no it bloody hasn't and I'm getting even more frustrated and annoyed because my life is going nowhere I don't like how things are and it sometimes feels like no understands.It just saids the same old same old I'm just going round and round in circles here I find a job but need experience but I can't get any if no one will employ me! I don't get it? how did they people who already work there get experience? I'm sure they were where I am now so how am I ANY different?.

I do envy people a lot because things are happening for them and not me and I'm always wondering where I'm going wrong? all I want is a chance and some luck! please I can't be unemployed much longer there's so many things I want to do. I know there's other people out there who are like me too but some probably don't even want a job but I do and I wish it was easy.

I recently got put on work choice/papworth trust to help with finding a job but we've only met a few times though I sometimes feel like she doesn't want to come all this way to meet me she comes from Cambridge to Halstead. I was meant to meet her last week and she cancelled and hasn't been in touch since but if I had cancelled I'd be in the wrong, I don't understand why she can't just say when my next appointment is I do get the impression she doesn't want to help but I could do with the support if I'm honest I thought she was going to help me with my next interview I really could have done with that.

That's all for this post sorry it's a bit of a downer but I'm trying to be positive a job will turn up soon
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Wednesday, 2 November 2016

Lush Christmas Collection Shoot For The Stars Bath Bomb Review

I'm a huge fan of Lush and I always over spend every time and I love when the Christmas range comes out I like to see what's new and what's come back. I was so pleased to see the shoot for the stars bath bomb back with a new look of gold stars instead of white gold seems much more christmassy. I've used this one before and I love it even more with the shimmery gold stars.This bath bomb is from the Christmas collection and costs £4.25.

There are 22 ingredients in this bath bomb which include Brazilian orange oil for refreshing and rejuvenating,bergamot oil for uplifting and cleansing,fair trade organic cocoa butter for softening and conditioning and it also contains coconut cream.The water goes a nice deep blue and green colour and the gold stars come to the top which smell of sweet honey. The only thing is when you empty the bath it leaves a gold shimmer on the bottom!.

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