Sunday, 14 January 2018


I can't quite believe my blog has 40,000 views! how the heck did that happen?!? I'm so chuffed! when I started this blog I never dreamed I'd get this many views.I'm very proud of my little corner on the internet sharing my life updates,beauty posts and my struggles with Fragile X.

Whether you've been here from the start or are fairly new I just want to say THANK YOU! for being here and for reading my blog. I don't really know who reads my blog because I don't get a lot of comments very often but when I do it makes me happy!. I don't have a huge following either but I hope to change that soon and also make some improvements to my blog.

Here's to making more content and reaching even more goals! I hope you stay along for the journey and I'll be back soon with more posts. Don't forget to follow!.

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Saturday, 13 January 2018

My Go To MakeUp

Today I'm sharing my go to makeup products that I use pretty much everyday. I hope this gives you some ideas if you're looking for new products to try. Leave a comment if it's helped or if you liked this post :).

Benefit Flawless Oxygen Wow Foundation in Ivory £29.00-
This is the most I've ever spent on makeup and I still can't believe I actually bought it, some might think that's not much but to me it really is!.I love this foundation, it goes on well, blends easily and a little goes along away. It feels nice and doesn't feel heavy or anything like that,it also doesn't go cakey like some makeup does. I know it's expensive but it does last a while.

Benefit Boi-ing Brightening Concealer in No 1 £17.50-
This is my favourite concealer ever! it used to Rimmel wake me up but ever since I splurged on this one I've not gone back and I'm still on my first pot!. Again a little goes along away,it has good coverage and blends well.

Rimmel Fix & Perfect Primer £6.99-
I've tried cheaper primers such as one from Wilko and also natural collection but they didn't feel right and I wasn't keen. So I came back to my all time favourite Rimmel fix and perfect (the blue one) This is the only primer I like so I think it's worth the money it's a good brand, it goes on well and feels better on my skin.
Maybelline Colour Tattoo Cream Eyeshadows £5.99-
My all time favourite eye products! there's 8 shades to choose from. They blend easily,stay put all day and they feel nice to put on.I use the creme de nude as a base which helps keep the on and on bronze shade in place. I've tried other shades but haven't really been a fan and I always stick with these two shades.

Seventeen Backlash Mascara in Blackest Black £6.99-
My go to mascara I've tried others but this wins hands down I love the big brush,it's easy to apply and I love how black it is. I also like the blowout one in the yellow tube the brush is the right size and gets in the corners of your eyes,it makes your lashes look longer and stays put all day.Unfortunately the seventeen range is now being discontinued :( 

Primark Prue Glow Highlighter £5.00-

This is my favourite highlighter, I have other ones I use too but this one is by far the best!. It goes on well,gives a nice glow and I like that it has four shades to choose from. This is from the PS make up range at Primark and if you haven't checked it out then you should because it's a bargain and you can get some good products.

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Monday, 1 January 2018

My 2018 Plans

Happy New Year! I thought I'd start of with what some of my plans/goals are for 2018.

Blog More
I really want to work on my blog more and post more content,I don't have a schedule but I just hope to post a bit more frequent. I have sort of re-designed my blog but sometimes I would like to be able to get a different layout but I wouldn't know where to start. I do think my blog is looking better now than when I first started, I have got the hang of things now. I also plan to read more blogs and leave comments but I always find that hard anyone else? I do read a few blogs but some layouts are too much or I just don't find them of interest.

Find A Job I Enjoy
As I am now unemployed I've got to start looking for another job I hope to find one I actually like but that's easier said than done!.I don't really want to work in retail but it's difficult to know what I can do.I might tweak my CV a bit and add a few things.

Get A New Hairstyle
I never know what to do with my hair I say that every time I got to get it cut! so I think it's time I had a change and had something new.

Meet New People
It would be good to meet new people and make new friends but I find it hard both online and offline because I'm not very social. I find it hard to start conversations and look people in the eye, I get nervous and shy. I do hope to make some new friends this year and also if I find a job I'll meet people that way.

What are some of your plans/goals for this year?

Let me know in the comments

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Thursday, 21 December 2017

My 2017 Highlights

I thought I'd share a few highlights of my 2017 I like to think it's been a good year for me I've done some good things from going to Scotland-to seeing Little Mix!. I hope you like this post and that you've had a good year.

Edinburgh Trip And The Addams Family Show Southend
I went to Edinburgh for Fragile x research it went okay apart from not having the scan because I was scared and felt really anxious, though I did do other research.I had a good time in Scotland visiting Edinburgh castle and sightseeing I also saw the Addams family show in Southend with my sister which was good it had some well known faces in such as Samantha Womack from EastEnders who was Morticia Addams.

Little Mix At The O2,7 Years At Volunteering & Mouse Trap Play London
I finally got to see Little Mix!!! it was amazing! thank you to my sister who got the tickets and went with me (it was my Christmas present for last year I had to wait 11 months! but it was soooo worth it. I want to see them again!. I have been at volunteering for 7 years now! but it's going change soon so I don't think I'll be there much longer but we'll see. I also saw Mouse Trap play in London with my family which was good I don't normally like plays but this was good.

My 27th,Snow,My Volunteering Christmas Meal And Christmas Panto
We had snow! 10/12/17 for the first time in ages! it was so pretty but also caused a lot of issues.I went to my volunteering Christmas meal at Whispers wine bar which I'd not been to before it was the last one with my manager Brad sad face :( I had a good time and I'm glad I went. I turned 27! five days before Christmas! but had a cold :( which wasn't ideal but I just dosed myself up on lemsip.Me,my mum and dad went out for a meal with my to Prezzo which was good. I got some lovely cards,gifts and many happy birthday messages so it overall it was a good day. Me and my sister went to the panto to see jack in the beanstalk in Southend which was so funny! it had Bobby Davro, Lee Mead and Stacey Solomon in.

What are some of your highlights? let me know in the comments

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and see you in 2018!.

Tuesday, 12 December 2017

Barry M Crown Jewels Eyeshadow Palette

It's been a while since I've posted a beauty/make up related post and I thought it was about time I did! so today I'm talking about the Barry M crown jewels eyeshadow palette I saw this on Superdrugs instagram and I knew I had to have it!. The colours are vibrant, they stand out and you have 10 so lots to choose from.

The colours are very pigmented so you don't need a lot on your blush but you've got to blend them well. The eyeshadows are all shimmer so if you're not a fan then this palette isn't for you, I for one prefer shimmer but I do use matte colours occasionally. Also these colours are great for a daytime look and they make the perfect party look if you're going to a nice event. 

The cost of this palette is just £6.49 so it's very affordable if you're on a budget and the packaging is pretty.It also fits in my make up bag which is handy if you're travelling and it's magnetic so it stays shut properly. You can pick this up in Boots or Superdrug.

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Tuesday, 28 November 2017

Numbers Don't Matter

Lately Instagram has been diabolical for likes etc which is annoying but then this blog post idea came to me and I realised numbers don't actually matter. I'm currently writing this while watching the first Paddington film so cute! anyway I've had my blog since 2013 and I don't have a huge following and nor do I have many followers on twitter/Instagram. My point is numbers don't matter as long as you enjoy blogging and writing content,then numbers shouldn't matter they're a bonus!.

I've come to realise that numbers don't matter and I blog because I enjoy writing content, planning posts and sharing my thoughts online. I have written  many posts from beauty, life updates and I've also shared my struggles and experiences with my disability Fragile X.

When you think about how many followers we all have, we don't know them,well I don't really know mine and I've not made friends. There's many spam accounts on Instagram and I only follow accounts that are of interest to me, because we can't follow everyone and it would be silly to follow for the sake of it. Twitter is kind of the same I only follow people who are of interest and most people do the follow,unfollow malarkey.

It really doesn't matter if you have 10 followers, or 100 or more as long what you do makes you happy numbers are just a bonus. We all need to stop worrying about numbers,followers, who follows who,who doesn't etc just keep doing what makes you happy!,

I'm glad I started a blog because it's helped me, as well as others since I've written about Fragile X and other things too. My blog is still my hobby and one I'm glad I have! best thing I started.One day I'd like to grow my blog and turn it into something but for now it's still my favourite hobby.

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Tuesday, 21 November 2017

7 Years Volunteering

Wow I really can't believe I'm sat writing this post on 7 years at volunteering! I can't quite believe I'm still there after this long! how did that happen?!?. I'm glad I'm still there because I always have a laugh and I've met some good people.

While I hadn't been going on my normal 2 days since being at B&M I hardly saw anyone but now I'm back to my 2 days a week until I find a full time job. It's made a huge difference to me and I honestly don't know where I'd be if I hadn't started back in 2010. I know for a fact I'm not the same girl when I started I thought I'd be there for a few months. Though even that might not have made much difference to my confidence and I might not be where I am today.

I've met so many people who are friends now and we always have a laugh together. Some are still there, some aren't who I don't really see now or talk to but I guess that's life as you meet so many people. I've said this in my previous posts but I really don't know where I'd be if I hadn't started here would I even have a job now? So I'm grateful for the people who have helped me become the girl I am today, because without them who knows where I'd be.

Anyway I think I've waffled on enough now!

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Friday, 10 November 2017

5 Ways To Staying Productive

1.Write a to do list with the most important things at the top, then add everything else and work your way down.

2. If you work from home then work from a desk as you're more likely to get things done. If you go out to work then it's also important to get things done so ask your manager or whoever is in charge what you've got to do for your shift.

3.Get up earlier, eat a good breakfast such as porridge or eggs, wash, get dressed etc and then start your day.

4.Put on some music to tidy/clean/ it'll help you get things done and you can have a dance at the same time!.

5.Keep away from distractions especially social media as this can cause you to stop working/doing things-you won't miss anything promise!.

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Wednesday, 25 October 2017

What I've Achieved

I wasn't feeling great last week because I was worrying I was behind on life with achieving certain things such as finding a better job. I then saw a quote on twitter about remembering what you've achieved so I thought I'd write a post on it. I hope this helps others who are feeling blah about things.

I do struggle with things sometimes such as asking for help and I did have a hard time at school it wasn't good. Though I think since college, having a couple of Xmas jobs and volunteering and being at B&M has made a difference. While I might not be where I want to be things aren't bad and I know they will get better soon.

'Struggling to feel like you're not successful enough? pause and reflect on everything you've achieved so far. Be proud of yourself' -Quote by A branch of Holly saw on twitter.

1.Volunteering for 6 years has helped me gain confidence, meet new people and become less shy. I am glad I started because I do wonder where id be if I hadn't. It's made a huge difference to me and I am grateful for the opportunity.

2.Being kept on at B&M after my time with Shaw trust ended I was there from February-August I then started properly with B&M from September. I'm on weekends which wasn't my plan and only 8 hours so not the best but I know its a job. I am glad I got kept on because I was getting good feedback from them.

3.Reaching 37,000 blog views! nearly at my goal! I really can't believe I've got so many! thank you so much if you're a reader, have been here from the start or are new. I really do appreciate it and I am forever grateful, while I don't get a lot of comments or have a huge following I'm still proud of my blog.

4.Writing for the Fragile X newsletter about my experiences and struggles which has helped others like me I was so glad to be able to write for them. It was a great opportunity for me to be able to write an article I'm so proud that I was given a chance to share my experiences.

Thanks for reading.

Monday, 23 October 2017

Being a Girl Is Hard

This post idea came to me while I was eating my dinner random I know anyway I thought I would share how hard it is being a girl. Sometimes it is, well ok all the time it's not easy and us girls have to deal with so much stuff eg periods, men, weight etc. So I thought I'd how hard it is being a girl if you relate please leave a comment I always reply.

These are every girls nightmare I can't remember when I first started but they were heavy, uncomfortable and just horrible. Then I came on the pill and ever since then they've been lighter and less frequent which is good. I don't get a huge amount of pain these days but they're still uncomfortable.

Society is screwed up diets, weight loss and quick fixes are EVERYWHERE which makes us think we need to be the perfect size but there really isn't one. We don't need to lose weight because society deems us too big or too small or we can't wear that outfit because it shows lumps and bumps. It doesn't matter what the label in your clothes saids, as long as you're happy. Don't listen to anyone who puts you down about your body or your weight, you are YOU and you're fabulous!.

There is pressure to have sex these days it's everywhere magazines, online etc but there's no reason to do it if you're not ready. Don't feel the need to do it just to fit in with your friends because it doesn't matter if you're waiting. I'm waiting and sometimes it bothers me that I'll never do it or I'll never meet anyone but I guess my time will come.

This is a nightmare! along with periods! I'm sure I'm not alone with this but shaving is just annoying! but I'm glad it's autumn now so I don't have to shave my legs lol. It's still a pain in the summer though constantly remembering to shave.

Make Up
Some girls wear it, some don't and that's okay too! it doesn't matter if you're a fan or not a fan of make up. I'm a huge fan and I always feel better when I've put some on. Obvs I have makeup free days and I do go out like that because I don't care what people think.You don't have to wear make up everyday to be beautiful.

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Tuesday, 10 October 2017

Fragile X

I've had this post drafted for ages because I don't know what to call it but I really want to get it finished so here I am hoping to publish this today!. I've written many posts about having Fragile X and they've all done so well which I'm glad about. I like to know I'm helping others and it's good to know I can relate to others, I don't feel so alone as I know others are in the same boat as me. As it's Fragile X awareness day today I think it's a good time to post it.

Finding A Job.
It hasn't been easy for me to find a job when I left school I went to college and then when that ended I had to sign on and ever since then it's been hard to find a job. I think my first proper job well temp one was at Sainsbury's at Christmas in 2011, then that ended and I was unemployed until I got another Christmas job at M&S in 2015. I applied for a job as a marketing assistant in 2016 the job was dealing with probate etc, I didn't think anything of it until I got invited to an interview so off I went and got the job the same day! then the start date came around in January 2017 and it all went downhill from there. I found it hard, I didn't get any help or support and they didn't understand Fragile X. I didn't really like the people and felt left out because this other girl was there more than me and they bonded.

Fragile X Research.
I took part in Fragile x research in Edinburgh in June for a MRI scan but I didn't have it done because I panicked and felt anxious and claustrophobic. It really upset me and I felt so silly for going all that way with my mum. It bothered me afterwards because I wanted to have it done but I just couldn't. I took part in other research but still felt like I was a let down.

How I Feel Day To Day.
Sometimes I'm quiet and don't say a lot if someone or something bothers me, sometimes it's stupid but I can't help it. I also find it hard to explain what Fragile X is so I try and avoid that but I do try and tell people. I sometimes don't always look at people in the eye but I do occasionally, though I think I'm getting better at it now. I really find it hard to ask for help with things because I feel silly even asking something simple I don't know why I find it hard but I get worried and scared. When the bus doesn't show up it throws me off because then I don't know what to do and I panic I'm going to be late for work etc. I don't like lifts much I try and avoid them at all costs because I hate small spaces I panic and feel anxious. I don't even like using public toilets.

Meeting People.
I find it hard meeting people and striking up conversation because I'm shy and quiet and I find it hard to start talking. I don't like being around drunk people and I'm not keen on alcohol either I feel uncomfortable around drunks.

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