Friday, 18 May 2018

My Blogging Journey

I thought I would share my blogging thoughts/ journey and how it's been since I decided to make a blog back in 2014 while I was unemployed.

So in 2014 I randomly came across Louise Pentland and Zoella blogs and I thought I would give it a try (btw I'm not a fan of Zoella anymore). I was pretty new to the blogging world and well I still am but I do think I've learnt more as time goes on. I began writing posts on makeup and lush products, then I started sharing my disability Fragile X which are popular posts.

Then I came across YouTube videos and started watching them as well and I always thought I would give it a try but I haven't. I still think about making them but I'm not confident enough. I started watching bigger YouTubers such as Zoella, Louise Pentland, Tanya Burr etc but then I lost interest in them (I do still watch Louise) as it is kinda hard to relate to them when they go here there and everywhere and share things that most can't afford.

Anyway ever since I made a blog I've reached some goals such as 20,000 to 40,000 views which I am so glad about! I didn't think I'd get that many. My next goal is 50,000 and I am nearly there!. That brings me onto other goals I made a Facebook page for my blog as I thought it would be a good idea and while it has it's pros it also has cons. I currently have 80 likes which is all well good but I am trying to get to 100 but the thing is NO ONE will help and I mean NO ONE they won't share it or like it if they haven't already (there are a few who like my posts but not my page I know who you are).

The blogging world is supposedly meant to be supportive but what I've found is that it's not. I don't get help with reaching goals, I do help others but I've started to stop because no one will return the favour. I also find it hard to get blogging followers because I get readers or I think I do? I don't get a lot of comments either. I don't even know why people follow me? I never really talk to any of them or when I have done they ignore me.

I sometimes find it disheartening when I want to reach goals but I don't know what else I can do other than keep sharing. While people might find that annoying I don't think I'll stop because if people actually helped then maybe I wouldn't have to share it so much. I've not made friends from blogging either because 1. I find it hard and 2. most already have there little gangs and I would feel awkward if I tried to talk to them.

I try my best and I do enjoy blogging, finding ideas and sharing them but sometimes I do feel like giving up with it. I just don't think I'm getting anywhere but then again I like doing my blog. I also try not to compare myself to others but that can be hard too.
I know it's hard to grow any social media site but I still thought people would help me but they don't. I'm still like everyone else I still have goals I'd like to achieve. I don't know what else I can do? I know things won't happen over night but I still enjoy blogging and it's still my favourite hobby. So I'm just going to carry on and hope I can achieve some of my goals.

If you're a nice human then I'd be really happy if you gave my Facebook page like

Here's my other social media as well.



I know this post isn't very positive like my usual ones but I just wanted to write my thoughts down.

Thanks for reading.

Wednesday, 16 May 2018

Center Parcs Weekend Away

Today I'm sharing my thoughts and review on my weekend trip to Center Parcs in Elveden Forest in Thetford Norfolk. It was mine and my mums first time going so I thought I would share what we got up to. If you're thinking of going then be sure to leave a comment or contact me on my social media.

We travelled on Friday afternoon as you cant check in your room until 3pm but you can arrive at 10am to wander and explore the place. When we got there we had to queue for a while but when we got to the check in point we got given our paper work/wrist band. The wrist band gets you in your room etc so you have to wear all the time and don't worry it's waterproof!.

After we'd checked in and unpacked our things we went to find the bike centre to hire our bikes for the weekend. They cost £31 each and we used them everyday we were there (well apart from Monday when we came home). I highly recommend hiring one as the place is so big and everything is spread out. On our first night we ate at Bella Italia and I had a cheesy pasta dish called Parma Dolcelatte and I also had a skinny mocktail which was actually nice!.

On Saturday we only had pottery booked and then went swimming as it's the only free activity. Pottery was ok but I wish I could have finished my plate properly but I got rushed :(. You pay for the studio which was £5.75 for adults and then pick an item to paint anything from a mug to a money box!. My plate was £16.50 but I had a voucher for £5 off so I got it for £11.50. After this we went swimming which was busy and noisy but that's was you expect! I wasn't overly keen but ah well. We were hungry by then so we headed for the pancake house which I recommend visiting!.

We had dinner at the Indian which is called Rajinda Pradesh it was very nice and I enjoyed it. I didn't get any photos of this meal though. We booked this one the after we'd been to Bella Itaila so we didn't miss out. We had battered cauliflower pieces which we'd never had before and they were really nice.

On Sunday we had adventure golf and clubbercise booked one in the morning and one in the afternoon.  I enjoyed playing golf but not clubbercise as I couldn't keep up with it and I didn't like it but I've tried it now!. We took our DVD back that we rented on Saturday it was girls trip but we didn't like it, then we took our bikes back in the afternoon because we wouldn't have time on Monday. In the evening we went to Foresters Inn the restaurant near our apartment where we had a roast dinner.

Thanks for reading and be sure to let me know if you go!.

Thursday, 10 May 2018

Job Update

I thought I'd share what's been going on with job hunting and how its going or not going! haha. Anyway I've been unemployed since Christmas last year when my job ended (well I actually wanted to leave!) it wasn't the best job but at the time it was some money but i was glad when I left. Ever since then I've not really had any help with finding a job as I did with my last one I had help from Shaw trust but I never heard from them again. This time seems a bit more slower and I haven't really had support from anyone.

It is hard to find a job with and without support but I still think it would be helpful. I don't know what I want to do which does sometimes bug me because I feel like I need to have it all figured out. The jobcentre are somewhat useless because they don't know what to do with everyone (it's very obvious) my advisor isn't much help and even suggested I volunteer even though I've been doing that for the past 7 years! see they are useless!.

I have thought about turning my blog into a job but everyone is doing that and I'm not sure if I would actually want to do that full time. I think I'd get bored and would probably rather get up and go somewhere and to meet new people. It is hard to know what job to I want to I have struggled since school with finding a job and I've never had a permanent one. It's not easy at all trying to find employment because a lot of people apply for the same role, you need a ridiculous amount of experience and you have to be outgoing and confident.

My jobcentre advisor also suggested doing a college course which I agreed to but then she goes and suggests something else. It was a called building better opportunities  which sounded better but I can't do that because I've not been unemployed for a year (stupid rule that is). I try to do new things and take opportunities when I get them but when you agree to do something it doesn't work out. I'm just going around in a viscous circle and not really getting anywhere.

Anyway that's all for this post and hopefully I'll be back soon with a more positive update!.

Thanks for reading.

Saturday, 28 April 2018

Fragile X Q&A

I thought this post would be a good idea ,well I still think it is but no one asked any questions which is annoying because I thought people would want to help. Anyway I'm still going to post it because it' important.

1.How do you cope with having Fragile x?

2.Do you find being sociable hard?
Yes because meeting new people is hard and I always feel nervous and anxious.

3.How old were you when you were diagnosed?
I believe I was 8.

4.What do you find most difficult?
Meeting people ,maths,job interviews,finding a job etc.

5.How was school/college?
School wasn't a good time for me I was bullied a lot and college was ok, I made friends (who aren't my friends now) but I was picked on by 2 girls one was someone I went to school with.

6.How has finding a job been?
VERY hard and it still is the jobcentre are useless and don't know what to do with people.

7.How did you get into volunteering and how did it help?
I got my volunteering role through Mencap back in 2010 I think and I've been there ever since! 7 years eeekkk!. It's really helped me come out my shell and my manager helped a lot (he's since left sad face) he was the best manager and I miss him a lot!.

8.How do you cope in difficult situations?
It depends what is it but sometimes I cry, get frustrated and angry.

9.How do you find interviews?
Very hard the questions are sometimes difficult to answer and I get stuck. I just wish they didn't ask such stupid questions and just give me a chance.

10.what's your advice for someone else who has Fragile x?
Don't give up! you can achieve anything you put your mind to and don't let anyone tell you different.

Thanks for reading.

Wednesday, 11 April 2018

Life Update-Let's Chat

It's been so long since I've written a life update so I thought today would be a good time to post one. Not a lot has happened but I still think it's nice to know what's been going on etc.

I'm still unemployed sometimes it bugs me but other times I'm not too worried. I still have no idea what I want to do. I'm sure I'm not the only one! though I do feel behind sometimes at 27. I'm still looking online but I don't want to work in a shop so I'm kinda stuck. My jobcentre advisor suggested I do a college course and then suggested something else but I' still waiting on that. I did ask but nothing has happened. I do feel behind on things such as finding a job, moving out getting married etc like am I ever going to find anyone? am I ever going to find my dream job? whatever that is!.

I think my blog is going ok and I still enjoy posting and sharing things but I'm not worrying about numbers because there's really no point! I do have those days where I feel like deleting my blog. Then I think no I will not delete it I will carry on because I like doing this regardless of how big my following is. I don't know the people who follow me and I've not made blogging friends from this but I still like sharing and being creative.

My Sister Is Moving Out!
Ok there is one good thing my sister is moving out! it happened pretty quick (I wasn't expecting it!) but it's a good thing because I know she has wanted to move out for ages. So I'll have my own room which I can decorate! it does seem weird that I'll have my own room at 27 when most people have had one all there life.
                                             Thanks for reading and I'll be back soon!

Tuesday, 27 March 2018

5 Ways To Declutter

I decided to write a post on decluttering as I'm into organising and decluttering my things so I thought I'd share my tips and advice.

1.Go Through Draft Blog Posts/Emails
If like me you start draft blog posts and then forget about them now is the time to go through them and either finish them or delete them. You can always start again if you still plan to write that specific post. I don't get a lot of emails but if you do then it's always good to go through them and delete the spam etc.

2.Sort Your Makeup
As a fellow beauty blogger I have a lot of makeup (well maybe not a huge amount because I've never been sent any) I still buy a lot #sorrynotsorry. I go through my makeup regularly to make sure nothing is off or if some of it's old I throw it away. Also sort out your brushes as they get dirty and used a lot so it's good to either clean them if they're ok or throw them away.

3.Give Items To Charity 
It's good to go through your wardrobe and see what you've got, so start by getting everything out then try it on,if still fits and you like it keep it and if you don't like it/doesn't fit then donate it to charity. Also go through your books/DVDs and either donate them or give them to a friend.

4.Delete Apps Of Your Ipad/Phone
this one might seem silly but I bet there's a few apps you've downloaded but don't use anymore or never used. So now is a good time to go through your phone/ipad if you own one and delete these apps that take up space.

If you're one of these people that keeps old magazines (I used to not so much now) anyway it might a good idea to go through them. If there's any articles that you want then cut them out and put on a noticeboard or in a scrapbook. Donate the ones you've not cut up to charity and recycle the ones you have cut.

Thanks for reading.

Sunday, 25 March 2018

5 Simple Ways To A Positive Day

Today I'm sharing 5 simple ways to having a positive day! I hope these little ways help,let me know in the comments.

1.Make your bed in the morning! you'll feel better honest!.

2.Have a good breakfast such as porridge and nutella,eggs or cereal.

3.Listen to your favourite songs/artist on your way to work,school or college and you'll instantly feel happier and ready for the day.

4.Take a lunchtime walk if you can/have some time. It's good to get outside and get some fresh air away from being in a stuffy office/work space.

5.Buy some flowers they're guaranteed to make you feel positive and happy! I suggest daffodils as it's spring!.

Thanks for reading.

Tuesday, 20 March 2018

CYO Make Up Review

Ever since I was aware that there was a new make up range out I knew I had to try it, well after I found out Seventeen are being discontinued sad face :(. They suggested a mascara by CYO so I did my research and I finally found the range in a London boots store on Oxford Street.

If you've not heard of this range before here are some important facts:
1.They don't test on animals or use animal ingredients
2.CYO stands for create,colour,call it your own let's make it up together.
3.The range is reasonably priced.

Long Lasting Foundation Lifeproof in 102
This foundation goes on well,gives a nice smooth coverage and doesn't look cakey. I got the 2nd lightest shade in 102. It is difficult to really know what shade to get but I do try and a get a light-ish shade not too dark. I like the feel of it and it lasts all day which is what you want! it cost £7.50 which is pretty reasonable if you're on  a budget/just starting using makeup. I use 1-2 pumps and either use a beauty blender or a foundation brush to blend.

Meet Your Matte Face Powder in Fair
I normally use the rimmel wake me up face powder which is still a favourite but I thought I'd try the cyo one. I got this in the lightest shade which is fair as that's the right shade for my skintone I never get the next one up. This powder feels nice,gives a nice coverage and again doesn't look cakey! it also lasts all day.

Shimmer Eyeshadow in This is Fantasy 
If I'm honest I wasn't too keen on this eyeshadow it didn't seem to on as well as others and it took some blending!. I like the shade as I normally buy brown/bronze shades but this one I just didn't like.It cost £4.50 which I think is a lot for one little eyeshadow! when you can get a whole palette for the same price!.

Volume Mascara The Thick of It in Black
My go to mascara is the seventeen blackest black in the yellow tube but seventeen is being discontinued but I don't know when. I read it on there instagram a while ago now but it's still in boots. Anyway I thought I'd try this cyo mascara I'm a bit fussy when it comes to mascaras anyone else like that? I like the brush on this one it's my sort of brush,it goes on well and gives long lashes.

Thanks for reading and let me know if you've tried this range.

Tuesday, 13 March 2018

11 Beauty Hacks

I thought I'd share a few beauty hacks as I know how expensive things can be! I hope this post is helpful. Leave a comment if you have any hacks you swear by.

1.You don't need to buy expensive cotton pads to remove makeup ever since a Lidl opened up in my town. I decided to there beauty range and have been impressed. The good thing is they're only 48p! If you don't have a Lidl,Primark have some cheap pads for 50p.

2.Cotton buds dipped in micellar water to remove mascara/eyeshadow smudges.

3.Use makeup brush cleaner (FYI you don't need to spend loads!) or a mild shampoo to clean your makeup brushes/blenders. I clean mine on a rubber cleaning mat which I got online and then lay on a towel to dry.

4.Baby wipes as makeup wipes these are much cheaper than actual makeup wipes,although I do tend to buy simple micellar wipes when they're on offer. If not then I buy baby wipes whichever ones are on offer.

5.Storage pots for brushes I got mine from B&M but you can use anything such as a old candle holder cleaned out or a mug you don't drink from.

6. Have a sort out of your makeup get rid off the old,give away things that you don't want to friends/family.

7.Wipe your mascara around the rim with baby wipes this will get rid of bacteria, you can also wipe your eyeshadow palette to get rid off any excess.
8.Use a anti bac wipe to clean out your makeup bag this will help keep it fresh and get rid of any dirt etc.

9.Keep your makeup out of the sun,try to store it in a drawer or in a basket away from direct sunlight.

10.Label products with the date you got them so you know how long you've had them.

11.You don't need to spend loads on razors try to look out for the cheaper ones or look for offers. I do sometimes buy the venus ones when they're at least half price, but I never buy refills because they are ridiculously expensive.
Thanks for reading.

Friday, 9 March 2018

Job Interviews

Job interviews are just so hard these days and I thought I would share my experiences and general thoughts.

The thing with job interviews is that you have to be this confident, outgoing person which I'm not and it's all for a job in a shop (or whatever job you're going for) on minimum wage. Why should we change ourselves just for a job we probably don't really want but need the money?

I do find it harder because I have Fragile X which is a learning disability I find things such as answering questions difficult and I can come across as shy/quiet which I am but I still think it's unfair to not be considered for a job based on personality.

I can't be someone else that's not me anyone else feel like that? job hunting has changed a lot of to be honest it seems a lot more difficult to even get a job these days because you need at least 10 years experiences,a car,a degree lol etc.

I've never had a permanent job in my whole 27 years :O yes I know I'm shocked to! I've only had Xmas jobs or temp ones which I hate both!. They're not fair you get all the crappy hours and days and then when it's over they get rid of you.

Interviews have never been my strong point and I just hate going to them because they ask such hard questions and I don't know how to answer. I can do the job but I think it's how I come across but like I said I'm not changing myself. I know I'm not the most confident person in the world and I have gained some but I still find things hard. I do think it's unfair these days with applying for jobs.

I had an interview on Wednesday and I got so stuck on most of the questions and I just know I won't get it, he kept going on about one question about fitting rooms with how would you do that and I really didn't know the answers. It was hard and I hate interviews, I know it's experience but I still struggle.Even if I didn't have Fragile x I'd still find it hard because I'm not outgoing and confident.

Thanks for reading.

Tuesday, 27 February 2018

6 Reasons Why You Shouldn't Give Up

1.I know things can be difficult sometimes and they don't always go right but one thing you shouldn't do is give up.Things will get better soon I promise so keep your chin  up!.

2.Believe in yourself because you CAN do anything you put your mind to.

3.Things will pick up soon enough I know it might not seem like it right now but they will.

4.If you are having problems/issues then talk to someone such as your best friend, mum,dad,sister etc.

5.Surround yourself with positive,motivational and upbeat people who bring out the best in you.

6.If you're unemployed (which I currently am) try and job search everyday, apply for what you can and be organised for interviews. I wrote a blog post on interview tips here.

I hope this post is helpful and thanks for reading.